I've lost myself. I've lost myself in love. I've sailed past uneasiness in my stomach, past my pounding head of racing thoughts, and past knotted nerves. I've fallen into a whirlpool of amour and am letting myself go. My hair is blowing in the wind, my shoulders have fallen back, and words don't need to escape my mouth to explain what I'm feeling. My eyes have been glowing fire for almost two years, and my brain has finally received the message from my happiness that this is what people long for their entire lives. This is good.
I look at the man napping on the couch and all I can think is, "Wow." This is someone I was apprehensive about when we first met. I let my assumptions fool me and I kept my distance. My guard was up, but fortunately, my mind was open. I gave it a chance. I opened the gates to my heart and my judgment followed behind. And now I look down at the ring on my finger and punch my false presumptions repeatedly, because quite frankly, they deserve it.
A lot of people (I'm not insinuating all) that long for love have been in bad relationships. They've been stabbed in the heart and they don't want to experience that repeated pain. They don't want to go through the cycle of a relationship over and over again, knowing that there is a chance that it won't work out and that they would have to start back at square one. Sometimes, the effort alone is just too much. Although they want to find love again and want to pursue a relationship, the fact that they would have to continue the search and pour out their hearts over and over again is simply unattractive. It can also be exhausting. As a result, these people hurl themselves into the dark. Their assumptions become their instincts and their guards are held so high that not even an airplane could break them down.
I understand the reasoning for being closed off and cautious when looking for love or when being presented with an opportunity for love. I have been at that stage before. However, how much more do you think we could learn if we let our guards down even just a little? What if we kept one valve of our hearts open, knowing that we would have to contain the strength to gain our selves back if a relationship didn't work out? I let my guards down a little with my fiance and here we are, about to get married. I was so apprehensive about him and so hesitant to see what he was all about. However, something happened when I gave myself a chance to better know him. My walls came down and the love flooded in.
I'm not saying that you should freely let yourself go. I'm not saying that you shouldn't be cautious. You should be. However, there is a way to be strong and confident in yourself and a free and open book at the same time. I don't know how many times I have reiterated this, but you need to fully understand and love yourself in order to do this. If a relationship does not work out with someone, how are you going to bounce back and move forward? Sure, you'll have friends and family to support you, but ultimately, if you don't have the strength to learn from relationships that didn't work out and advance to the next step, the support that your friends and family give you will do hardly anything.
It's scary to gear down and let your heart roam free, but isn't life the same way? Shouldn't we be accustomed to facing our fears head on? We're not opening our hearts to heights or cockroaches, but rather to the possibility of love, which is what every human being on this planet longs for. If our reward for opening our hearts and letting our guards down is endless care and pure devotion to one another, then what fear should we have? Love is exceptional and gratifying. Everyone deserves that.
I understand the reasoning for being closed off and cautious when looking for love or when being presented with an opportunity for love. I have been at that stage before. However, how much more do you think we could learn if we let our guards down even just a little? What if we kept one valve of our hearts open, knowing that we would have to contain the strength to gain our selves back if a relationship didn't work out? I let my guards down a little with my fiance and here we are, about to get married. I was so apprehensive about him and so hesitant to see what he was all about. However, something happened when I gave myself a chance to better know him. My walls came down and the love flooded in.
I'm not saying that you should freely let yourself go. I'm not saying that you shouldn't be cautious. You should be. However, there is a way to be strong and confident in yourself and a free and open book at the same time. I don't know how many times I have reiterated this, but you need to fully understand and love yourself in order to do this. If a relationship does not work out with someone, how are you going to bounce back and move forward? Sure, you'll have friends and family to support you, but ultimately, if you don't have the strength to learn from relationships that didn't work out and advance to the next step, the support that your friends and family give you will do hardly anything.
It's scary to gear down and let your heart roam free, but isn't life the same way? Shouldn't we be accustomed to facing our fears head on? We're not opening our hearts to heights or cockroaches, but rather to the possibility of love, which is what every human being on this planet longs for. If our reward for opening our hearts and letting our guards down is endless care and pure devotion to one another, then what fear should we have? Love is exceptional and gratifying. Everyone deserves that.
